At Odds:The Victory is Yours

Folks let’s talk about Spiritual battle real quick. It is something raging all of the time. The Spirits are at war EVERY SINGLE DAY. It’s not that all of a sudden they switch their attention to the unsuspecting Christian. There is sin,temptation , doubt, and fear around EVERY CORNER! Jesus didn’t say “Let’s go on a jolly good walk in the park to find the gold at end of the rainbow.” He said take up your cross(cause/mission) and follow me”. He says follow and we follow. That can be follow me into a sweet time of fellowship with likeminded believer or it could also mean follow me into battle against the false teachers disguised as brothers and sisters in Christ. Then He can lead us into obvious blessings that overflow and then right into blessings that don’t always immediately feel like blessings. He’s GOD and has the right to lead us,call us,and command us into whatever season He needs us in to put us in the best position for battle against the adversary! He allows the shots of fiery lies to be shot our way by Satan to strengthen us and to prove His strength. It hurts! Ouch oh it hurts! It hurts so bad that it is downright tempting to walk off the battlefield hands thrown up in surrender to the wrong king. I think there is the misguided assumption that when you become a Christian that it means a warm fuzzy life carefree from pain and suffering. Like some how Jesus acts like a bandaid from all our sorrows. WRONG! He IS our healer but healing spiritually isn’t really anything like being healed naturally. It’s far grater but so are the wounds that the healing must be delt with.

As this spiritual battle continues on and the lies of Satan are being shot with cannons at lightning speed there are some things that you can do to to bring victory in the name of Jesus Christ.

1)Make sure that you’re in the Word. Cliche as this sounds it’s really your only basis to go into battle. Without it you’re useless and might as well give up the fight. You’ll be a sitting duck and very little help to the kingdom. In fact you can bring great damage to the fight at hand.

2)Let others know that you’re facing this war. Partner in prayer with as many as you can. A war is never won alone. It takes a mighty army of people all laboring together with the indwelling of the Holy Spirit.

3)Confront every single lie head on. Is Satan telling you something about a thought someone has about you? Go ask them directly if what he is telling you is true. They’ll appreciate you coming to them. Is Satan discrediting your value? Read the Word and see what the Lord has to say about you. Are the attacks coming in the form of past sins being brought up? Recall the moment you laid them at the foot of the cross. Read what Jesus has done for you and when the Holy Spirit entered you!

4)Get sleep. This one really isn’t spiritual at all but Satan does attack when we are weak. If you’re weary and worn out physically it can be prime time for lies,nightmares,and imaginations to swell up.

Be of good cheer dear ones as we as brothers and sisters unite against the one who fell! If a Christian family member comes to you battle weary, walk along side them to lift them up to continue the good fight. Soon they will be the one to lift you when you have been wounded and the positions of battle have been changed. Go forward with the mighty armor of God knowing what Ephesians 6:12 says “For we wrestle not against flesh and blood, but against principalities, against powers, against the rulers of the darkness of this world, against spiritual wickedness in high places.” You have the power of Jesus Christ walk in all confidence as given the example in 2 Timothy 2:3-4 “thou therefore endure hardness, as a good soldier of Jesus Christ.

No man that warreth entangleth himself with the affairs of this life; that he may please him who hath chosen him to be a soldier.” We can be pleasing to the Lord by our faithful battle not with others but with Satan alone. He WILL GO DOWN!

One Year Into a New Journey

One year ago I boarded a plane heading to a Nancy Thomas healing hearts camp. I went to gain some knowledge to bring back to my classroom and to help others out but in all honesty I had no clue what God had in store for me. Looking back over the past year I see how my heart has softened where it once was rock solid. I didn’t know I had a missing piece,a spot where a different kind of love could only fill. Isn’t it funny how the ones you think you can bless are actually the ones that bless you?

A mom asked me yesterday what makes me want to continue in this type of work. Without a doubt it’s the parents that are doing day to day life but really are fighting the battle of a lifetime. There is no option for them to “just give up” because a little life is on the line…a soul will be lost. So they get up each day and to the world they have to act like everything is ok. I don’t want a parents to have to face this heart transplant process alone. I might not be in a position to take in the orphans as we are commanded to but I can support the parents that do. I love them and not a day goes by that I don’t pray over them or pause to wonder how they are doing. They have in a very real way became part of my family…at the very least in my heart.

So maybe you’re wondering what God has brought to pass in the past year as far as my work with the children with RAD and the families that love them.

-1 Camp

-Went to Canada to work with a kid/continue learning.

-Worked with four families

-Worked to make my classroom trauma sensitive/RAD workable.

-Raised Money to attend a superhero training in April.

All in all I so wish there wasn’t a need for therapist,therapeutic respite providers, support systems,and all the many many people required for these situations. I wish that children weren’t neglected and traumatized and parents could just be parents. You see, God has a perfect design for families and when that is broken the heart is broken. I’m just so abundantly happy to know that there are families laboring even if it’s not the path they personally chose. They are the real superhero’s and they deserve a break.

My future goals as far as this type of work are as follows.

-Do the superhero training in April.

-Do 1-2 Camps this summer depending on financial ability.

-Attend the first ever Camp in Canada in September.

-Eventually become a parent coach.

-Gain more clients and give more families rest.

One year ago I would of never known what God would of had in store. I would not change it for the world!

If you’d like more information about how you can become a respite provider or even a supportive person in a parents life, contact me and I’ll be happy to walk along side you. I want to help you educate yourself for the future of these children gaining new hearts.

I heard yesterday that adoption is a loss and a gain. Unfortunately sometimes the child only feels the loss. Let’s walk along side these families as they help their children feel and experience the gain. After all we who are born again Christians know the greatest gain of adoption. I don’t believe a child can experience the love of Christ until they experience and accept love here on earth. Let’s not let these children fall through the cracks.

Snippet:Don’t Be Content With Darkness

There is light and there is darkness. Contrary to popular belief you won’t find a middle ground between the two. It doesn’t matter if you went into the water and came out sopping wet. This thing called church membership and community living has absolutely no value without the Holy Spirit causing the old man to be laid off and new life to spring forward.

Which side do you find yourself on? Do you sit in darkness but look nice on the outside,content to look nice and catch a few of the church life benefits? Or rather do you live a fulfilled life in the kingdom reflecting the light,life,and love of the Lord Jesus Christ?

Do not be pleased to be hypocrites. The world will call the pretender’s bluff and rightfully so. The truth will be found and judgment will come when the bridegroom comes for His perfect bride spotless without blemish or wrinkle. He will not be content with an unlit soul insiders a dead body.

Pesto Please

Knock knock are you all still there?

After what seems like an eternity since I last wrote anything just purely for the joy of writing, I’m here to share something a little new to the blog. Now before I begin please don’t get your hopes up to much that this is my “new thing”. Inspiration hit as I sunk my teeth into a tantalizing chunk of “pizza” on Monday. Sure I had created it and yeah it smelled heavenly but you never can tell until you yourself just dig right in!

Now I’m not one to brag…ok, stop laughing! Ok, I AM one to brag and this pesto chicken pizza bread was A++ and I just couldn’t deprive my faithful followers from the tingling tastebuds that could await them.

Now dear ones I must say that before you get too emotionally involved with this concoction of fine degree, you must note a few things. No,I’m not anyone fancy therefore I don’t cook fancy. Let’s face it. I’m just a single gal(well not really but maybe that’s a post for a different time) cooking just for myself. Yes, it’s simple and perhaps you already have this in your arsenal of delectable delights. Lastly, I don’t measure when I’m creating so if you aren’t a roll with the punches kind of a gem, you may want to exit now. However IF you have scope for the imagination and are looking for something to shove in your face. I’ve got the “recipe” for you!

Pesto chicken pizza bread


(as I remember them but hey feel free to add what ya want. Cooking is your moment to shine!)


-Parmesan:a whole bunch

-Milk/half half/cream cheese:eh maybe like 1/4-1/2 cup?

-Salt/pepper: pinch but be careful on the salt. The pesto adds some saltiness and so does the parm.

-Cooked chicken finely diced(grab a big knife and recreate Julia Child and the onion scene in Julie and Julia)

-Pesto: Homemade is best but a small store bought container is good too.

-pizza cheese: I’ll give you the freedom of choice here.

-Crusty bread:

-Fresh mozzarella: Don’t cheat yourself here.

To begin our saga, the butter must first change its matter from a solid to a liquid, for those scratching their heads,melt the butter! Once the butter has made it’s transformation add the parm,you’ll want to lower the heat and begin stirring the cheese and butter. Add the milk or half/half of cream cheese (only a little cream cheese) and stir like your life depends on it. Once you’ve got a saucy looking liquid. Take it off the heat and set aside.

Next…are you still following me? Chop your cooked chicken,place it in a bowl along with the pizza cheese,some parm,and pesto. Toss that around a bit(I personally like to pretend I’m tossing a salad because let’s be real, it’s as close as I get to eating something green).

Set that bowl aside and grab the bread. Cut the bread in half. Begin scooping all the fluffiness right outta there. I am an excellent pretender and I imagined all of the *calories being ripped out! *Please note that no calories were harmed in the making of this pizza. You take full responsibility for the consumption of this recipe. Once it now resembles a bowl like boat pour some of the sauce into the carved out bread bowl. Spread it around like a normal boring pizza. After that, fill it up with the chicken mixture. I pressed it down a bit to pack the optimal amount of chicken into it. Grab your fresh mozzarella and slice it to put on top!

Now here’s the tough part. Do you want to freeze it for a later date or heat that baby up and go to town? Freezer option just grab a freezer baggy and let it do its thing. If you opt to eat it right away I’d suggest placing right on the oven rack. Bake at 350 until the mozzarella is getting golden brown!

Well folks I certainly hope you’ll enjoy this as much as I did! If you do end up trying it out, I’d love to hear from you! Pictures of the finished product would be awesome too!

As always much love,


Ps. Here’s a picture to prove I’m still amongst the living!

Time Well Traveled

Here we find ourselves at the end of another year. With God’s abundant grace we have will be given a new year with multiple opportunities. I know for myself this year has been a year of change,growth,and exciting new doors that have opened and some that have closed. I’m not unique in reflecting on the year that has passed. Many blog posts and conversations will be focused on this passage of time. I’d like join in and reflect on the awesomeness of my God in His love and care for me in this past year.

Moody Clouds!

January: I found myself preparing for my newest roommate to move in. Having the privilege to live and work along side Roxy was a joy and blessing.

February: I discovered that although for many many years I valued St. Patrick’s Day as my favorite holiday it actually turns out to be Valentines Day. I wear pink,bought a heart shaped pizza,and my parents sent me beautiful flowers. What more could a woman ask for?!? Alongside my new found favorite holiday, I celebrate in my heart the day I fully came into submission and surrender to my Lord! It fills me with all sorts of large feelings I will never be able to put into words. My life removed from God is worth nothing. That is cause enough to praise His name!

March: This month was filled with birthday type stuff. I turned 27 and started a new year of life.

April: I boarded a small six passenger airline and headed with a team to Florida to serve at a family healing camp. My heart grew like the Grinches heart grew while I spent time with children and families effected by RAD(Reactivate Attachment Disorder). I would never of called myself a “kid person” sure I love teaching and such but something changed in seeing parents literally fighting for the lives of their children. We are called to care for the widows and children and I can do that by supporting these awesome families that are growing little hearts that have been hurt.

May: The end of a challenging school year ended and honestly I was so thankful! A much needed break was in the horizon.

June: Annual meeting was a delight because I got to connect with many of my brothers and sisters in Christ. There is a vision that takes place in my mind when we are gathered around the communion table seeking to do the will of God. We are each humbly waiting for that day that we are one in the consummation of the marriage with Christ!

After annual meeting I packed my bags for a week of Training/working in Canada with a raddlet (kid with RAD). Whew no amount of time would allow me to tell all of the stories. Fear,excitement,drama,smells,and friendship blooming we’re all words I’d use. Originally I was planning on heading to Georgia for about a month but the child needed different care so I headed home with a switch of plans.

July: This was the most boring,lonely,horrible month ever. On the tail of the disappointment of lost opportunity I was in the house completely alone for a good portion with absolutely nothing to do and no motivation to find something to fill my time. I’m not proud of July but God uses it to draw me closer to Him. I had a lot of one on one talks with Him and my Bible was opened on my lap more than it wasn’t. I found comfort in bringing my Bible to bed with me each night as if a security blanket.

August: I went to Kansas for a weekend that I can honestly say was one of the best weekends of my life! I felt so loved by my friends Lana and Monica as they had carefully planned a to do list of fun for us. We did so much but beyond that we grew a little closer as friends.

School started and instantly I could “feel” that it was going to be a good year. I have yet to be disappointed in how the cookies have crumbled.

Yes, I was terrified but it was worth it!

September: We (at school) really started to feel our routine set in and the normal school days began to flourish. I am very fortunate to get the opportunity to work among fellow followers of Jesus Christ as we labor for the kingdom of God! I started doing therapeutic respite in my home and I have been enjoying the process so much! It’s a unique challenge and requires me to be on my A game 100% but oh so worth giving these wonderful parents a small break from having to be the superhero for a few days. I pray that God gives me many more opportunities to support these awesome parents!

October: My teeny tiny nephew came into the world with many prayers and much love. His arrival has been a highlight of the year for sure! Each new babe is a special miracle from God. Let’s hold our children a little closer this year as we realize some children never get to feel the love that yours does. Let’s pause to pray for the hearts of the neglected and abused children. Oh Lord you do care and hear their cries!

Sweet child

I got on an airplane for the third time this year for an adventure of a lifetime! Myself along with my brothers and sisters in Christ went to Germany to meet up with more of our family in Christ to support and have a love feast in their neck of the woods! Oh what a joy filled experience unmatched by anything I’ve ever been a part of before. This was the moment I got what I really was a part of. My fellowship is my everything here on earth to me.

Brother and sister in Germany

November:This month was a fun one! Myself and three other women rented a cabin in the woods in Holmes County to find some R&R. We did all the usual things that you do there with the addition of spending a day doing fun crafty things! Somewhere along the way in the summer I took up painting. It’s a skill I hope to expand to bless others as I write letters that will bring encouragement to those that get them.

December: December=eventful!

My friend Lana came out for the weekend so we could…well let’s just say check your mailbox in the next week. We had more laughs than I knew could happen! Friends sure make life fun!

I had the opportunity to be perused by a godly man in another fellowship. It was a fun opportunity that turned out to not bring peace even though it was fun while it lasted. Who doesn’t want to be valued by someone here on earth? It was a growing experience bringing me to face my vision for my life and how God has continued to call me to be faithful in all things.

I am traveling home now after a week in Missouri and Kansas. Things like Christmas,sickness,Cheesecake Factory,bonding,and large sloths are the words used for this trip.

Now we find ourselves back at January where I began a year ago. I can’t tell you what the next year will hold but my prayer is go a steadfast commitment to my Lord and Savior as I continue on my pilgrimage in the kingdom of God. I hope I meet many new friends and strengthen relationships with the ones I already have. This year has brought many Mountain View moments and yes, a few moments where I stood at the bottom of the mountain wondering why I had to start again. I can say without any stretching of the truth that the climb was worth it!

The sun rose and set every day of this past year and I got to enjoy most of them as I did life. Oh the gift that is a new day! Let us each wake to look for the gift God has given us then let us fall before Him in praise!

I love you all! Much love dear ones. If you haven’t found yourself at the foot of the cross casting your sins away, I urge you to cry out to our sovereign Lord to help you to do so! This life here on earth will vanish and we will each face eternity. I want you each to face it looking at the face of Jesus at the wedding of His people with Him to never be separated. If I can help you by answering questions or praying along side of you please let me know. We are not promised another day on this earth. Make your choice now.

Pilgrim Nicci

A Fresh Start With a Rainbow of Opportunities

I love getting to that point in summer preparation that I look like an organized teacher. Things are colorful and in their place. It’ll only last four and half seconds but in those precious seconds I can imagine how file cabinet brains work while enjoying my confetti brain color explosion all the same. It’s a little like having the best of both worlds…for the four and a half seconds. It’s bliss!

A new year symbolizes a new opportunity. For me it is eight new opportunities to share God’s love and impact the future of the kingdom of God. In the beginning of each school year I feel so energized and excited but I know how quickly routine ,drama,and burnout can happen. Hey it’s the reality that comes with the weight of not only coming along side parents in spiritual education but also making sure their academic education is top notch too. My prayer this summer has been “Lord help me not to be a lazy teacher.” It seems like that shouldn’t be a prayer request of a young passionate teacher but it has been strong on my heart. I’ve taken extra care over this summer to listen and watch videos on effective teaching. The topics covered were from struggling students to colorful classrooms to story telling in the classroom. Each time I heard the speaker talk I would repeat my prayer.

Looking forward to this upcoming school year there are going to be challenges that I’m very aware of and want to help minimize as much as possible. Some of these are out of my control but can be greatly influenced by my willingness to be “all in” as a teacher. You see being an ENFP I have to work mighty hard to not want to scamper off to greener grass when things get difficult. However with the concrete knowledge that God has placed me right where I’m at means I have an obligation to being not only content but also thrive. That is exactly what I plan to do! That also gives me compassion,I think, to students who may not enjoy school so much. Hmm how can I bring them into a place of contentment?

So with that all said I am super excited for the learning environment that I have created! By far my favorite part of getting prepped for the year is the decorating! I’m not a classy teacher with simple beauty. And trust me check out our other classrooms they are STELLAR! Absolutely peaceful to walk into. I just LOVE seeing each teacher’s own flare! However I’m more of a funky person with bright colors and imagination. I like space to be filled with learning posters or quotes. I want my students to be looking at something inspirational,learning,or colorful in those moments that their minds wonder. I mean come on they are human and it’s bound to happen!

So for those that care I present you with our rainforest rainbow classroom! Each year it gets more difficult for me to maintain a color theme with a fun theme intertwined. I’m so happy with how this turned out! I walk in and feel the greeness and fun oozing through my mind. I hope the students do too! With a few more tweaks I’ll call it totally ready but I just can’t wait to share!

Much love,

Pilgrim Nicci

The future is bright ….

Beyond Culture and Into Christ

But if our gospel be hid, it is hid to them that are lost:-2 Corinthians 4:3

2 Corinthians 4:1-5

1Therefore seeing we have this ministry, as we have received mercy, we faint not;

But have renounced the hidden things of dishonesty, not walking in craftiness, nor handling the word of God deceitfully; but by manifestation of the truth commending ourselves to every man’s conscience in the sight of God.

But if our gospel be hid, it is hid to them that are lost:

In whom the god of this world hath blinded the minds of them which believe not, lest the light of the glorious gospel of Christ, who is the image of God, should shine unto them.

For we preach not ourselves, but Christ Jesus the Lord; and ourselves your servants for Jesus’ sake.


I have been fairly vocal about my opinion of the uniform style of dress my church chooses to wear. To me it is a blessing that I would struggle to rid myself of if the time came that we didn’t have one. I know I’m largely supported in that thought by brainwashed little old woman that in some respects can’t think outside of the teachings that they have received over the past 45+ years that this uniform is the only modest option and it is down right salvational! Please,please,please do not lump me into THAT category. I do in fact value a homemade dress in a uniform fashion that is consistent from day to day. It doesn’t have to be complete with flapping capes and be ankle length. In fact I have two sisters in Christ that I’m incredibly impressed by their beautiful modesty. One is Dunkard Brethren she wears a Mennonite style cape dress or very modest skirts and shirts and another IS Mennonite but wears a simple modest dress that comes mid calf. Both women are beautiful examples of diversity in modest dress. The simple reason is that their hearts have been converted. They aren’t just going through the motions of being modest for church requirement. They themselves are modest beyond their clothing choices and have made the decision to lay off the old man and literally become a new creature.

So although I do 100% support modesty I don’t feel like it must fit into the box of brand of church fellowship. In fact I think it’s a bit odd to have different sororities within the bride of Christ. I think perhaps it should have some more fluidity between like minded fellowship than it does. I get weary of the divisions in church fellowships and the questioning of ones salvation inside of the kingdom fellowships. Should we know what brand of church by the style of covering? I don’t know but I’ve got an opinion.

All that aside I do have a concern relating the uniform. I’ll only speak on the subject of German Baptist Brethren New Conference. I want to say straight away I do not intend this to be a source of tearing down my fellowship nor a place for others to bash it either. My statements are not intended as a blanket statement that covers the entire brotherhood. If you don’t find yourself in the subject I have to speak on, then rest in your assurance of a clear mind. However if you do find yourself having this struggle evaluate your heart and move forward as a changed creation in the grace of God.

I believe that among our church there is a tendency to hide behind our uniform. *deep breath I typed that* Somewhere along the way it has become our only form of witnessing to the lost world. The over riding consensus is that our woman are billboards for the world to see as an example of a follower of Jesus Christ and the German Baptist Church. I’ll stop here and say, yes our modest funny looking dress does get us questions! Praise the Lord because if I would have never of seen a plain lady on the side of the road I wouldn’t be where I am today. However I’m the exception not the rule. The GB church has put a large amount of responsibility on the woman to be the ones in the day to day mission field. Yet what hasn’t been given to them is any training on how to witness. Oh yes from little up the children of our fellowship are filled to the brim with biblical teaching. That is a great joy and a very positive part of my fellowship! It encourages me greatly! However they aren’t really taught what to do when someone comes up and asks them a question about their clothing choices or fellowship. You ask 10 woman and you’ll get 10 answers and some might not be accurate.

You see, I’m not so sure that the German Baptist Church has a lot of room for outsiders beyond the occasional seeker that plows their way in. I’ve asked people “So how do we bring people into our fellowships and disciple them?” Only to be met with “Oh most people don’t want to come to our church you might as well stop trying.” I walk away feeling a little distant from my fellowship each time I hear that. I firmly believe it is OUR responsibility to go to the lost. It’s not the lost responsibility to come to us. We are to bring Jesus Christ to those that are lost. If we keep the gospel hidden by our casual thought that our dress will attract the lost then we have failed our mission here on earth.

So what can we do? I can only speak to the woman because my role is not that of a man. I hope maybe there is a man out there that is reading this that would be willing to talk to the men.

1. Know why you cover your head. Like not just the answer you’ve heard someone else say but know why YOU put it on each morning. Always take them back to the Father…not to church requirements.

2. Know why you choose modesty. Be willing to talk openly about modesty. Yes, answer their cultural questions but be sure to separate for them what is cultural vs. scriptural.

3. Have your testimony ready to share. I’m going out on a limb here and assuming if you have made the cultural change then you are in fact born again. You don’t have to give every detail but be sure to know your salvation story and use it to point to the Father love,Jesus’s sacrifice,and the Holy Spirit in dwelling in you.

4. Make sure who you are is who you are 100% of the time. When in public should be the same as you are on a Sunday. Make sure both line up with who God wants you to be. People are watching because of our culture differences. Let’s have them pointed back beyond our church building but to our Father God.

5. Don’t hesitate to strike up a conversation while out and about. It doesn’t have to dive straight into scripture. You can simply be friendly and show the love of Jesus. However if there is opportunity to direct the conversation do so! You may have just planted a seed.

6. Don’t use your cultural dress as a means to tune out those around you. Don’t place yourself on a pedestal of righteousness based on your attended fellowship.

7. Wear a smile. Honestly this right here is the capstone of knowledge I wish I could tell my entire fellowship. Do you know how unapproachable and snobby we look when we go around with a frown. I propose that we should smile even when it feels a little weird. Just do it!

8. Speaking of being inviting, make eye contact. I know it can be awkward but make eye contact ( and smile) at those that come into your path. I guarantee you that you’ll have more people willing to talk to you than if you avoid eye contact.

9. Remember that every time you step out the door you are in fact entering a mission field. You have an obligation to the kingdom of God and your king. It’s just as important as going across the ocean and sharing Jesus’s love to starving children. To kind of quote Finny “If you aren’t sharing the gospel locally you aren’t going to be able to do it anywhere else. People don’t magically become open to God word just because you’re on foreign soil.”

10. Lastly keep in mind the ultimate goal is to win people for Christ. The goal isn’t just to fill our church pews with success stories. If we can help them find a church fellowship that does work for them then that is a kingdom work. We shouldn’t think we are the only way because in reality there is only one way and it’s THE WAY Jesus Christ. However having said that there is a very bad issue if no new converts entering our community. I’d urge you to pray about how we as a body can be more like hands and feet of Christ.

So in short know what you believe. Don’t use your culture as a means to exclude seekers. Reach out to those around you. Don’t hide the gospel. Be a point of contact by starting with a smile and eye contact.

I’d be interested in hearing your thoughts in a respectful manner

We say visitors welcome. Let’s really welcome visitors.

Much love,Pilgrim Nicci