Recently I had a conversation with someone about our clothing choices. She said something to the effect of that we as women should make the room when we enter more beautiful. We don’t need to be beautiful to draw more attention to ourselves but rather a gift to those who enter. That can be in our physical beauty as well as the beauty we share in hospitality,compassion,or any other trait we possess. That conversation has stuck in my heart over the past few weeks as I’ve mulled it around. I have a firm conviction that we are to dress in a way that respects ourselves as well as others but this took my thought to a new level. “What if the spaces I enter,I could bring beauty to?” I can get into a rut of haphazardly getting dressed,forget my sweater,not seeing the need for a coat,and well my hair is in a bun so who cares what it looks like…I’m single and no one wants me anyway. Is that respecting myself? Is that respecting others? Do I make the places I go more beautiful? I’d have to say no. I started trying to be more prepared over the past several days and weeks. Some days more than others. I’ve dressed for success and I’ve seen a huge difference in my attitude. I’ll probably never stop wearing my tennis shoes even if they don’t match and are ugly but they are comfortable and practical. However by being put together I’ve felt beautiful and in return I believe I have made wherever I go a more beautiful place! What do you think about this thought of women making the spaces they dwell more be?
January to January (err…Drcember) 365 days, and many moments that made up the 2020 year. For many, this year will go down in their life history book as the worst year of their lives. With Job cuts, loss of loved ones, and total or partial isolation. 2020 has brought to the forefront of the depravity that our world faces. Even for those of us with a hope in Jesus Christ, there may have been at times an eerie feeling of possible doom up ahead.
2020 will not be marked in my book of life as the worst year of my life. I can say with unshakable certainty that as of this moment when this is being written that 2020 was the best year of my entire existence here on earth!
Sure with the onset of the “big C-corona virus” there were moments of asking myself “what is right? What is true? How do I personally choose to move forward as the world around me is locked inside in fear?” I don’t feel the need to share my conclusion with you all at this time. However, I want to share what 2020 has done in my life.
If you have followed my journey for any length of time, it is no surprise that 2020 has been a year of transformation. I’m January I let go of the strongholds of anger in my life. releasing them from my hold subsequently allowed the chains of being entangled with bondage to slip away! For sure I’ve had to let go over and over again because my fleshy human spirit tries to grab for them once again. The Lord’s goodness and mercy have found me victorious over this sin!
February before the country went into lockdown I attended my fellowships Titus 2 day. This is a day centered around women teaching women. I had not gone out around mixed groups among my fellowship since I was fired and my life crashed. The day was joy-filled and full of peace! One particularly exciting moment for me was being able to fit into a dress that had been so tight before just the July before!
By March we hit lockdown right in time to celebrate my entering into my 29th year of life. It was an enjoyable day with the couple I live with including weight watcher friendly foods. 29 has been very good to me! I can’t wait to see what 30 will hold!
Apr, May, June, and July all seem a little blurry as they say. I’m sure I did things I just don’t know what! I mainly focused on my overall health journey. I found that my sleep cycle has stability, I have mostly joyful days and very few days that I feel down! I wake each morning ready to greet the day because “This is the day the Lord has made! I will rejoice and be glad in it!”
I spent the month of August working in Georgia with a family with children that have RAD. This was a tremendous opportunity that opened up further opportunities to return to their home in the future (including right now over Christmas as I write)! I’m thankful to get to do what God has for me and what I love to do. More importantly, I’m thankful for the friendship that can come in unlikely situations.
Returning home I spent September and October focusing on my health journey, I started babysitting a set of adorable twins, and I continued my local RAD work. I must pause to share how thankful I am for the jobs that I have. God has blessed me richly.
November was a highlight as a friend and I took a celebration trip to Florida! I have officially lost 54 pounds and she has lost 70 and is so close to her goal! We did many exciting things that made this trip an absolute celebration. There were two highlights that I must mention! One was a bucket list experience! We got to go Up, Up, Up into the sky on a hot air balloon! We floated over alligator swampland, neighborhoods, saw the sunrise, and even smacked right into a TREE! Truly an experience I’ll never forget! The second was getting to find opportunities for exercise on our trip! We even took a run! I never thought I’d be someone to go running but here I was doing my best! I have a ways to go before it’s a regular activity! I’m proud of both myself and my friend for all of our achievements over 2020!
Here I am at the end of December spending Christmas away from my family for the very first time. Yet I feel right where God wants me. My heart is full of thankfulness for my family understanding and supporting me.
As for the coming of 2021 and my hopes and dreams for the future. I plan to take another year to be singularly focused on my health so I can freely be solidified in good physical, mental, and emotional health! I believe that if I take this journey slow that it will become a permanent fixture and not a fleeting chapter in my life book. I sometimes feel self in my self-focus yet I trust that this is part of the journey and what I need to become fully who God created me to be.
To each of you, my friends, family, support system, and everyone else. I want to thank you for being the steadfast cheerleaders in my transformation inside and out! I’d be lost without every one of you! You all have been beyond good to me in every way!
As we go through life we are going to face a number of emotions. We will celebrate the victories of overcoming a challenge with the emotion of happiness. Find ourselves in shock at the stupidity of the world. Anger is bound to bubble up at injustice. We will laugh at ourselves and with others,and if we’re lucky it’ll be full belly laughs that reach us to the core. Shame will be felt when we sin,harm others,or make a mistake. Sorrow will fill our hearts as we mourn the loss of someone we loved. Emotions are unavoidable and overflowing to every area of our life. We were given each one for a reason. I’m a firm believer in embracing the emotion of the moment but not allowing it to have control over you.
Anger in itself is not wrong.There are a number of reasons a person may become angry. It when we lose control over the emotion we’ve been given or have an emotion that’s oddly positioned it’s where it doesn’t belong that we find a huge problem. A righteous anger can inspire a great deal of positive change. Where as anger from pride can lead to harming others. It’s all in The Who and what is in control.
Let’s look at happiness for a second. What could possibly go wrong with happiness even uncontrolled? Happiness can fill us with the warmest and fuzziest of emotional feelings which leads to emotional health,living life abundantly,and seeking what will produce that over and over again. Happiness can also be manufactured from alcohol,drugs,and unsafe practices. A never ending state of “happy” loses the ability to emphasize with others,feel the depth of the other given emotions,and can give a false sense of security.
I used to ride the roller coaster of emotional highs and lows. In fact I used to get so nauseous from my own yo-yo like emotional state that I regularly wished that I was void of emotions. It would be that in one day I’d be the stereotypical example of a woman feeling every extreme emotion. For me it was very real. That or for a few days I’d be so high on life I was told on multiple occasions that I seemed intoxicated. Then for days and weeks on end I’d be so blue and down that nothing felt right in the world. Likewise others couldn’t relate to this because just the day before everything was peachy! It was not until I realized that we must have control over our emotions and that hormonal imbalances can play a huge role that I was able to find emotional freedom. Most days I wake up happy and ready for the day. I am still a human and I have off days or blue moments but no longer do I wonder if I’ll ever get over the hump of sorrow. It’s because I’ve learned how to have a healthy relationship with my emotions and also have worked long and hard to have hormonal balance.
My encouragement to you is if you find that you are seasick from tossing and turning on the ocean of emotions that you carry, seek guidance on how to control your emotions vs. them control oh you. For myself I did a lot of research,started a health journey,and sought God’s heart. For you it may look different. I bless you in finding the key to embracing with control the emotions that have been given to you!
Psalm 126:5-6 They that sow in tears shall reap in joy. He that goeth forth and weepeth, bearing precious seed, shall doubtless come again with rejoicing, bringing his sheaves with him. —// My sorrow was deep. My anger was dangerous. My sin grew more out of hand each day. Broken,restless,fighting,crying…so many tears. I felt as though all hope was lost and I’d never feel peace again. I believed that there would be no restoration between the Lord and I. I thought my problems began in April of 2019 but the more I heal I acknowledge that I had issues that were created and building ever since 2013. I had gotten used to allowing others the treat me less than I deserved and in return I treated people unfairly. By the time my life exploded the only emotions I had left were anger and sorrow. I couldn’t enjoy the happy things, although I tried. I would overthink every situation,conversation,motives of others,and my choices. I was beaten down and had no confidence. One day by the grace of God I saw my weakness. I saw that I was withering away and had become a shell of the happy,bubbly,joy filled person that once was. The Lord awakened my slumbering soul to see that the rage inside of me was dangerous to my salvation but that it could go beyond revengeful thoughts but could lead to actions I would regret. The Holy Spirit lead me to verses about love. It was impossible for me to love Jesus if I didn’t love my brothers and sisters in Christ. Further more the thoughts I was having were one in the same as if I had committed murder because I had hate in my heart. I reached out for help and no one believed me, how desperate I was,and how far my sin had taken me. I’d get simplified responses or even open mockery of what I was asking help with. Looking back I’m glad that I had to work out my depravity with just the Lord and I. You see, I couldn’t lie to the Lord. He knew the innermost thoughts I had thought. He had seen how the past year had played out. He watched as I built a wall of anger between Him and myself and others and myself. Most of all His love never changed where as the people I had asked for help now saw me in a different light. I’ll never stop being thankful for my Lord’s unfailing love in pulling me out of the pit of darkness that had been created around me! He has truly taken my tears and transformed them into shouts of joy!
This evening while taking a bubble bath as I do often. I felt compelled to worship. I sang Sweet Hour of Prayer,King of my Heart,and Thank You,Jesus. There in the bathtub,completely naked,bubbles glistening, I praised my Lord in a way that I haven’t in a long while. I had to recognize the irony of my literal naked state. We are all naked before the Lord. No masks,filters,or walls stand between us in our creator. There is no need for modesty or shame as we stand before Him each day because He formed us before we were in our mother’s womb. He isn’t phased by our lumps,bruises,stretch marks, beauty,or anything else. He longs for our unashamed worship! Sadly tonight I realize that I have not been spending time with Him as I ought to. When was the last time I wholeheartedly worshipped my savior? Was it last week at meeting? Last month? Last year? I’m sad to say that I can’t recall when it was last that I gave my undistracted voice,heart,and spirit in worship to the creator,savior of my soul,king of my life,Spirit that comforts. If I haven’t been worshipping my God then who have I been worshipping? I think it has been me. Have I slipped oh so subtly to listening my own voice? Isn’t it my own image I’m seeking after? What are my thoughts in the morning and when I lay my head down at night? “My journey,how far I’ve come,and where will I go?” Those are not reflective of a life of worship of a great king but rather a life of self preservation and inward thinking. The lyrics from one song in particular,stood out and grabbed my heart inside of my chest,as I sang to my God this evening.
“Your blood has washed away my sin Jesus, thank You The Father’s wrath completely satisfied Jesus, thank You Once Your enemy Now seated at Your table Jesus, thank You”
The Father’s wrath completely satisfied! Once “I” was your enemy now “I” am seated at your table. Singing,naked,tears of the daughter who has been “too busy” to seek her Father’s face, it dawned tragically what that wrath was like and to think IT IS COMPLETELY SATISFIED in the blood of JESUS CHRIST for me the daughter that is worshipping her own self,her own achievements,her own newness from the brokenness! What a shame. The singing continued to a new song and still the line “once your enemy,now seated at your table.” I had to utter a prayer something like this. “Oh my God my God how is it that you love me even as I neglect my precious time with you? Father you don’t remove my seat at your table or shun me for my selfish ways. You always have a place for me when I am so undeserving. I’m sorry for taking the journey you have me on and turning it into self worship. I’m sorry to taint your beautiful work in my life with taking credit for my broken pieces becoming whole again. Jesus you are the healer through your blood. Thank you!”
I don’t know where you find yourself tonight. If it’s far from your creator I urge you to turn off your phone,worship your savior,and read or listen to His Word. Tonight take the precious time given to you in this moment to reconnect with the lover of your soul.
When God created people He created them in His image. His vision for His image is not to be in an unhealthy state whether that be various addictions,sin,unhealthy relationships,or even depression. I believe His vision for each of us is to be healthy,happy,and living life to His glory. We cannot do that effectively if we are beat down,attending a chronic pity party,judging others,and hating who we see looking back at us in the mirror (physically or mentally). Someone asked me if the words I said to myself and thought about who I was were things I’d say to my best friend. That opened my awareness that what we believe and say about ourselves will impact how we thrive in life. No I wouldn’t tell my friends that they were worthless. I’d never look at them an announce that they would be better off dead. I wouldn’t be caught thinking they were unlovable. When I realized that I was created in the image of God for “such a time as this” I began to see that there was no possible way to continue living the life that had some how become my new normal. I didn’t have to settle for pain and hopelessness. My pride didn’t need to get in the way of me fulfilling my today and my future. Becoming healthy looks different to each individual that chooses to take that first step. I know for me it started out as a need to overcome despair and to gain strength to be able to do my job. It has taken many new forms as new visions of possibility take place. I dream of a day that I can run in a race! I long to not be the “big girl” in a group of people. I want to grow the list of vegetables that I actually enjoy! Most importantly I want the strength to continue to grow within me both mentally and physically. Let us all remember today and everyday that we have value, one we didn’t earn or must strive to keep. From that knowledge let’s move forward,head held high,and treat ourselves as we treat others.
I still have 62.1 pounds to go to meet my personal goal of losing 110 pounds. I’ve lost 47.9 pounds since October 29th 2019. There have been days of planned indulgences such as Christmas then there was a couple weak moments of binge eating old habits such as that incident with the entire an of Pringle’s. I’ve made positive choices most of the days since I’ve started. I’ve learned to add some vegetables to my diet and to really enjoy them! My mental heath has improved just as much as my physical health. I’m have gained strength over food addiction and addressed the “why” behind me being obese. It was never simply because I just really liked food a lot. In fact the list of things I would eat was so small that even the simple act of going over to someone’s house for Sunday dinner was a huge struggle for me. The food I liked was not nutritious and delicious food. It was drug food laden with chemicals and toxic addictive additives. Things like Doritos,boxed foods,frozen chicken fingers,fast food,pop,and candy. This stuff isn’t food. I’m not saying a person should never eat these things but if someone chooses to consume such things it should be done with an extremely cautious way. I certainly don’t eat 100% clean but I’m working each day to get one step closer to that goal. It’s not going to happen over night. I just know that if I eat out it has to be planned and not a random situation. If I don’t, I’ll end up eating out every night that week. I’m very careful about what chips enter my home. They must be an alternative and be in a pre weighed package. Just having these little boundaries ensure I’m not eating out of an addiction but rather an informed choice. That way I don’t have those horrible situations where I consume an entire can of Pringle’s ever again just because I’m overwhelmed and don’t want to have to come up with a plan. It’s simply not an option 98% of the time to not have a plan anymore.
This weekend my dear friend is coming into town and I have a plan. We will be eating two non WW friendly meals. I don’t plan on overeating but rather ordering something I really truly want. The Cheesecake Factory is a 1-2 times a year treat and I full intend on ordering chocolate cake to which I’ll track all 80+ points. We have made sure that all of the activities we are doing while she is here are active and get our bodies moving! I’m not concerned one bit because I know above all else that my mind,heart and body have changed!
This side by side is so awesome to me! The today picture I had to hold in my dress because it was so loose that you couldn’t see the reality of my size difference. Like I said…I have A LONG WAY TO GO. This isn’t a get to goal and stop choice I’ve made. This is my new life and oh man it feels so very good!
Lay not up for yourselves treasures upon earth, where moth and rust doth corrupt, and where thieves break through and steal: But lay up for yourselves treasures in heaven, where neither moth nor rust doth corrupt, and where thieves do not break through nor steal.
Have you ever stopped to wonder what treasure really is? What comes to mind when you hear that word? Is it a beautiful chest of gold hidden by pirates as depicted in the storybooks of our youth? It could be jewelry that a loved one has gifted you as a sign of love. Hard earned money at the end of a week of work could seem very treasure like as it is the key to buy even more treasures. Whatever it’s may be that comes to mind it is nothing in comparison to the heavenly treasures that God has given in the eternal life. Even the earthly treasures gifted to the earth by our creator are just temporary. We have things such as a Columbine flower,the sun shining for the first time after a long winter, birds singing in the morning, or that precious moment the trees began to bud. Those treasures certainly point us in a heavenly direction as we stand in awe of our great creator God. Yet they will fade in time. The Word says in Isaiah 40:8,
“The grass withereth, the flower fadeth: but the word of our God shall stand for ever.”
Revelation 21:23 says,
“And the city had no need of the sun, neither of the moon, to shine in it: for the glory of God did lighten it, and the Lamb is the light thereof.”
Genesis 1:30 shares that all life,every living thing was given by God.
“And to every beast of the earth, and to every fowl of the air, and to every thing that creepeth upon the earth, wherein there is life, I have given every green herb for meat: and it was so.”
Ecclesiastes 3 shows us clearly that there is a time for everything and even those song birds and the budded trees shall die.
“To every thing there is a season, and a time to every purpose under the heaven:
A time to be born, and a time to die; a time to plant, and a time to pluck up that which is planted;”
If our treasures even the God given earth treasures are nothing more than to be enjoyed in the here and now what is a treasure in eternity? First and foremost the greatest treasure given was the opportunity of salvation through the blood and life of Jesus Christ our savior king. Jesus said very plainly “I am the resurrection, and the life: he that believeth in me, though he were dead, yet shall he live: And whosoever liveth and believeth in me shall never die. Believest thou this?-John 11:25-26 There will always be an earthly death. Just as Jesus died for our sins we too will die yet the kicker of it all is that WE SHALL LIVE AGAIN! The treasure of the life of Jesus lives in us is to literally be alive forever bound with Him in eternity in the permanent and forever kingdom. What other radiant treasures await us in that forever kingdom with our forever life?
If it weren’t enough to simply get to live forever worshipping our king we(the church) will have the great treasure of being married to Him in the most holy of ceremonies of all time. Revelation 19:7-9
“Let us be glad and rejoice, and give honour to him: for the marriage of the Lamb is come, and his wife hath made herself ready.
And to her was granted that she should be arrayed in fine linen, clean and white: for the fine linen is the righteousness of saints.
And he saith unto me, Write, Blessed are they which are called unto the marriage supper of the Lamb. And he saith unto me, These are the true sayings of God.” As a single person this especially perks my ears and causes my heart to beat a little faster! Individually some of us may never get to collect the beautiful treasure of a godly marriage. The white dress may just be a fragment of our imagination. The sting is quickly lightened by the abundant fullness of this treasured promise of the marriage feast of the Lamb! Let us marinate a while in your heart right now. The king of King’s treasures you and you treasure Him in a love incorruptible by time or sway of affections. Ah a treasure indeed!
“Blessed is the man who remains steadfast under trial, for when he has stood the test he will receive the crown of life, which God has promised to those who love him.” From my brief study on the subject of crowns there are five types of crowns to be given as a treasure in heaven. The crown of life,the crown of righteousness,the crown of rejoicing,the crown of glory,and the incorruptible crown. I won’t even begin to expound on each one. I’ll leave that for your own personal study. I’ll leave you with this thought. Straighten your back and hold your head high. Imagine the hand of God placing a crown upon your battle weary head. Look around,what is it you see in your heavenly visions? It’s going to be so much more of a treasure than what you or I can conjure up in our human imaginations. I know this one thing, with a crown comes confidence. 1 John 4:17 17 “Herein is our love made perfect, that we may have boldness in the day of judgment: because as he is, so are we in this world.
There is no fear in love; but perfect love casteth out fear: because fear hath torment. He that feareth is not made perfect in love.
We love him, because he first loved us.” Christian hold your head high not of your own earthly strength but because of the boldness that is in you from Christ Jesus,aka practice wearing your crown.
There are two more treasures that perhaps should’ve been placed in the beginning but they are so interwoven to my life that I hadn’t thought to place them in the category of treasure. Yet the very fact that they are such a forefront of my life and the life of all Christians shows that it’s a treasure of now and to come! The first one should go without saying and it is the written Word of God. Left for us to have here on earth as the greatest adventure,live story,self help,and life saving letters and communication from our Father. “For the word of God is quick, and powerful, and sharper than any twoedged sword, piercing even to the dividing asunder of soul and spirit, and of the joints and marrow, and is a discerner of the thoughts and intents of the heart.”- Hebrews 4:12
“All scripture is given by inspiration of God, and is profitable for doctrine, for reproof, for correction, for instruction in righteousness: That the man of God may be perfect, thoroughly furnished unto all good works.” – 1 Timothy 3:16-17
“But he answered and said, It is written, Man shall not live by bread alone, but by every word that proceedeth out of the mouth of God.” Matthew 4:4 People through time have fought over this treasured Word of God. It’s been translated over and over and is still being translated to new languages as we speak! It has been kept alive throughout Eve generation and will for eternity!
Lastly although there definitely are more heavenly treasures, is the Holy Spirit who is God Himself left to comfort and guide us while here on earth but for all time. Now the God of hope fill you with all joy and peace in believing, that ye may abound in hope, through the power of the Holy Ghost. Romans 15:13 says “Now the God of hope fill you with all joy and peace in believing, that ye may abound in hope, through the power of the Holy Ghost.” This tells us where our joy and peace come from. If we ever find ourselves lacking of those things it might be wise to evaluate if we’ve pushed the spirit aside and given His room away to something else. “Know ye not that ye are the temple of God, and that the Spirit of God dwelleth in you?”-1 Corinthians 3:16
Often we push the Spirit aside in times of trials or temptation. If we would rather call upon Him with all authority He is here as our great defender and comforter.
“And I will pray the Father, and he shall give you another Comforter, that he may abide with you for ever.”- John 14:16
I hope you have a little bit better understanding of what a heavenly and worthy treasure is after reading this. Perhaps you(and I) will remember that when our next paycheck comes or when our ever human heart begins to long for the next shiny trinket that will ultimately end up at the Goodwill later. I believe the more we meditate on the things above the closer we are at making eye contact with our Lord. You can’t easily be distracted when your eyes are locked on the God above. When the awe and wonder,beauty and might of our Father and are experienced in our lives, the earth bound things become less and less attractive. One day you’ll realize those aren’t what you hunger to collect because to take your eyes away from the Father for even a moment is more than you can bear. For a moment from His goodness is a moment in desire that can’t be filled with the world.
Lock your eyes on Him and when you must slumber pray as I heard once “that eternity be stamped on my eyelids”.
If you’re anything like me you’re a sucker for a good holiday treat. Long held as my very favorite holiday was St. Patrick’s. Only recently was it bumped to second place by Valentine’s Day. Naturally when March 1st hit my inner party animal started to crave the shamrock shake from McDonald’s. Not only am I repulsed by McDonald’s but a quick scan of my @ww app told me that the minty goodness would cost me an entire day’s worth of points. I said “see ya later alligator (see what I did there..it’s green,the shakes green) and I started a Pinterest search for a #ww friendly shake option! It wasn’t long on the enter-webs that I found my desired recipe. After work,after I hit the gym, and I hit the local Walmart. If you know me you know that Walmart is my least favorite place to shop but desperate times call for desperate measures. I gathered the necessary ingredients and straight home I went! I followed the recipe to a T and what I got was good but not great. Not one to give up so easily I added this and a pinch of that and what we have here is the most rocking shamrock shake ever created! I know,I know, I’m a genius mastermind and you can start sending me gift of appreciation at any time. So what’s in a shamrock shake you might ask? I’ll tell you…because that’s just how incredibly nice I am! Equate vanilla shake 3 oz. plain Greek yogurt 8 grams sugar free pudding mix Stevia tad Vanilla splash Mint 1/2 teaspoon Green food coloring Ice more than 10 cubs that’s all I’m sayin Optional topping: I did 23 grams coconut whipped topping this added 2 extra points Sprinkles this added the fun
Can you guess the points? The original McDonald’s one is 23 points. Mine is 3 for the shake and 2 if you are addicted to whip topping. That’s a total of 3-5 points on blue! Not bad eh?
I’ve had a lot of time to think about time. We cannot go back in time and we have no key to the future of time. Only our Creator knows how much time we get but we get to chose how we use our time. I wouldn’t say that I’m an expert on how to effectively use one’s time but I have another thought that began brewing as I had some time to think about time. I’m going to share it with you and I hope it’s not a waste of your time. Do as little online shopping as you can. It reduces our time with outside human contact,fills the earth with more packaging,and you spend extra money in shipping that is wasteful. Make eye contact with those around you. Share a smile too. Make an appointment with a random friend once or twice a week. Make that a habit and try your best not to break it. For me it’s Wednesday’s and Saturday’s and it’s delightful. Laugh more than you cry unless you need to cry. In that case embrace the tears and move on. Set a monthly goal and make sure you achieve it. You don’t want to start the next month with regret but rather accomplishment. Your time here on earth matters so make the ticking of the seconds count. Serve others,keep on growing as a person,and above all else be thankful to the Lord above for the time that you have. Tell your friends and family and maybe even a stranger or two that you love them. You never know who might need to hear it. While your at it, even if you’re not a touchy person give hugs! Yes, hug those around you because why not? This world is sorely lacking human contact and you maybe the last hug a person gets while they have time left here on earth. Share the gospel freely but maybe not in a shove it down peoples throats kind of way. Share it in bold relationship and pockets of time that the Lord gives. Time, it can’t rewind and we can’t go forward until it’s time…how will you use your time?